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    Wednesday, September 12th, 2007
    5:44 pm
    Thoughts on 9/11 and that other Doomsday
    I wrote on my myspace yesterday a great quote in my opinion. "Today we remember that our government lies, today we remember that everyone dies." I am absolutely pissed off about 9/11. I was so arrogant and ignorant, young and uncaring on september 11, 2001. I didn't fully grasped what had happened, that the whole world had just changed, and nothing was ever going to be the same again. Sounds a bit overdramatic eh?? The truth is, I am not far off at all. I side with that small circle of folks that believe that our own american government is fully responsible for 9/11... its even possible that some of those so called american victims are not truly victims in the sense that they may not all be dead.... if you think they are...prove it, where's the bones and blood?? Never found!!! I did everything but told George Bush to come meet me in the parking lot after school so I could kick his stupid bigot ass. So I have made a strange decision... I am going to attempt to write a book on 9/11. I know it has all been said, but if I put together the evidence and write my take on it, then it will be fully original. This is going to be a huge undertaking for one such as me that doesnt like to read.

    In other news... today is september 12, that means there are 36 more days until my wedding. I cannot believe it has come down to this. We are so close, in fact I believe Kathy is out getting the wedding cake samples and the wedding bands tonight. I am stuck at work at the hotel... it's kind of a long night, but I will probably try to go home early as I am still not feeling at 100%. Whatever type of sickness is going around...it's been kicking my ass for days now almost two weeks in fact. I hope Kathy ends up getting rings tonight that way my stress level can recede ever so slightly....a lot like my hair line.
    Wednesday, August 29th, 2007
    4:38 pm
    Hey I have not been here forever
    Yo all you out there in livejournal land... I am not sure i f anyone is still around or if anyone even cares if I am still around. My god I have come beyond full circle. I started this live journal when I thought I was with the best girl ever, boy was I wrong...in fact that whole 2 years can be chalked up to a huge mistake and a lot of alcohol. That is after all what kept me and that particular person together. I think we both knew way back that it was crap. However now here I am almost 6 years later and I am just 51 days away from my wedding...

    Kathy is the love of my life... she has pushed me hard and made me work to become quite a useful man afterall. Lots of people would doubt this if they read it, but the truth is we all grow up someday.... its just a question of when. In my case...I grew up a little later than everyone else. She is a beautiful person both inside and out. The wedding will be in schaumburg and so will the reception. Then I believe we are headed to Myrtle Beach, South Carolina for the honeymoon for about a week.

    I am extremely excited for the wedding, from the service to the bar, the food to the friends; I just can't wait. But I have to admit with all the stress that has recently arisen I cant wait for it to be over either. I mean this in the best of ways.

    Pointless piece of information to put out there.....Friday Aug 31....holy shit Rob Zombie recreated my favorite movie ever... HALLOWEEN...I will be in line with a butchers knife so don't cut in front of me.... or I'll cut the front off of you. HAHAHAHA

    For the last 6 months I have been a general manager with Best Western hotels, but I dont agree with the individual owner idea, and frankly I dont ever want to work for a punjabi Patel boss ever again. It's nothing personal but at the same time everything perosnal. It seems everywhere you look these ghandis are owning and managing cheap ass hotels everywhere across the country. Well no more of that thank you. I have returned to the Hilton company because they are way more respectable and the service and training is better so that every employee is always on the same page. I am not a manager here right now, but I am being trained and "groomed" for a management position within a year or so.

    Well I think that is enough for all of you to digest and if you know me and want to catch up at all....drop me a line or whatever.

    email : misiu_drums@yahoo.com
    Wednesday, October 18th, 2006
    6:36 am
    Oh Jesus Do I need to update!!!
    Ok so once again I find myself saying to you.... hey it's been exactly 12 months since I last wrote and I need to update. Well as far as employment I have managed to bounce in and out of a few different jobs over the last year and I am proud to say that I have ended up back in a hotel working overnights handling the hotels finances for each day. Not too shabby... not the best.

    As far as music.... the old SBB broke up long long ago and as I mentioned in my last entry I joined a new band called The Live Wire. There are now 4 of us in the band and we have a powerful arsenal of songs... around 14 including covers. We have also been to the studio already to record the beginning of our album and we are in the process of planning a second trip to the studio to finish up two more songs. You can check us out at http://www.myspace.com/thelivewireband or http://www.purevolume.com/thelivewire.


    Kathy and I are still together and doing fine... we have set the tentative date for our wedding as 10/20/07. We are just starting all the planning and gathering money, and tasting foods etc.

    We still live in the house in Schaumburg and just recently we had a party for the anniversary of our move in. Although I no longer have the band room since Kathy took it over as her art room. Instead I have the rest of the basement for musical purposes. The dog is still around, Buddy. He is doing well except that he still loves to eat socks.... I just can't get him to quit. We also had to get ourselves a couple roommates to fill the extra rooms so we can save more money for the wedding.

    For a while Jason Mitchell was living with us and I was acting up and doing stupid shit while he was around as one might expect if you know Jason. But we asked him to get out of our house when he just started screwing up too much. I don't like it that Kathy hates him so much I can't even mention him really, but I know he is a dumb ass and he needs to get his shit straight. For example the other day he was telling me how he is dating this great girl, but he also told me that he cheated on her already twice. Oh well.... his loss I suppose.
    Sunday, October 9th, 2005
    4:31 am
    It's A Wonderful Life
    Well it has once again been a while since I last updated this journal. So here it goes....
    Kathy and I have moved into the house... it is friggin' amazing. It is a 3 BR hous with 2
    bathrooms... and a full basement. I have my own little hangout room / band room. It is where
    I spend hours playing drums, but also I have cable in there, a phone, a stereo, and it is so
    comfortable. There is a lot of work to be done on the house, but it is nice.

    Today I had a quiet day at the house playing with buddy, and doing a little exploring in the
    storage space below our deck. It was fairly rewarding... I discovered a load of useful yard tools
    had been left as well as five fairly decent fishing rods. I also have a river inner tube for tubing
    so as my dad said if I could find some freetime and a river oh what fun I could have.

    Kathy and I finally invested in car insurance for ourselves instead of having her the only insured
    driver under her parents policy. We got some really good coverage from progressive for $772 every 6
    months. Tonight I cooked Chicken Parmagianna Pasta for dinner then we had some damn good sex for
    desert. All over the house.... I dont care if this is not what you want to read... it is worth
    mentioning.

    So the first night we were in the house we had a really great party. There were probably around
    25 people there. And a lot of beer and champagne for me. I passed out when it was still early.
    I however walk away from that evening very angry at a few people. There were some unmentionable
    acts in my home.... but it will suffice to say I have not called some people for a while. And I will
    not be calling some people for a while. There are some things you can do at someone's party at an
    apartment that you just dont do in a house. When one lives in a house often they will want
    a more mature, respectful air in their home. They wouldn't want people screwing on their laundry
    machines or whatever. You know when your friend owns their own home you should respect their home..
    not defile it with some other person you dont know.... or even one you do. And certainly do not
    break things in that home in the process.... it is unbelievable how immature and bastardish some
    people are. You know it honestly creeps me out because you ask anyone i hang out with...

    "WHO IS THE LAST PERSON YOU SEE GETTING A HOUSE?"

    They will all say me. However in a total twist of fate... I am in my own home before any of them.
    I also have pretty much managed to go from totally unstable, messed up, depressed, drugged out
    screw up boy to a young man who has begun to get his shit together and is ready to start a family.
    I have spent an incredible ammount of time letting stoopid Mother F***ERS waste my time and take
    advantage of me. I have wasted my friendship and caring on people who I spend most of my time worrying
    about.... worrying if they died from those drugs.... worrying if they are in jail..... worrying
    if they are alive even. No one needs friends like that. What about worrying if they are happy today
    thats something i am willing to worry about. It is really embarrasing when someone says...

    "HEY MAN I HEARD YOUR FRIEND IS IN JAIL AGAIN....."

    or

    "HEY YOUR FRIEND IS PASSED OUT FROM THE HEROINE"

    That is not what envisioned for my life.... and I have begun to take actions that will allow
    me to not have that in my life.

    P.S. THIS FRIGGIN MUSIC SUCKS

    Current Mood: grateful
    Current Music: Assorted Elevator Music In The Lobby - Courtesy of MUZAK
    Thursday, September 15th, 2005
    6:06 pm
    Updating.... this title is sort of repetative
    Hey....whats up?? well we are moving into our house on sep. 30 and oct 1st and we are following the moving up with a huge party at the house on oct. 1st. If I know you and like you and want you there you will hear about it from me directly. Quite a few people will be coming out since this will be my "LAST PARTY" I am starting to feel too old to get trashed and have puke parties these days. I got bills...a dog...a lovely fiancee who i love very much and I need to take good care of all these people that I love....(dog and kathy). I want to be able to afford music equipment and my energy is just getting lower as i get older. So this is it Curran is exiting his youth with a giant bash to celebrate the house. Get drunk and go nuts!!!!!!! We will have drinks, food (BBQ), possible live music, 2 floors of mayhem.

    I look forward to seeing all of you that i invite....
    this will be the last chance you have to see me go nuts....
    Monday, September 5th, 2005
    11:58 am
    GREATEST NEWS EVER
    KATHY AND I GOT THE HOUSE....WOO HOOOO

    We are moving in to a 2 story house.....

    i bought an acoustic guitar, a 4 track, 2 mics...

    i joined a band... the live wire band w/ chris steele

    you can check us out at www.myspace.com/thelivewireband

    thats it...I am at work.... yay fopr stuff and houses
    Thursday, August 25th, 2005
    12:56 pm
    stuff to say
    Hey I am just sitting here....listening to music and I realize that I can totally put myself into these depressing moods... like subconciously I guess. I am sure it is obvious to everyone, but I never really sat there to actually think about that. I am in total control over the depression that I am stuck with, but I guess I just let it run me most of my life. I can probably make it not bother me, if I can make it bother me I must be able to make it go away too. That's important cause I don't much care for dealing with those time periods of depression at all.

    Heres a funny tidbit for anyone interested at my work we are going to have a semi-celebrity and I have been asked to do the on-site security work. I will not say who or when until it gets so close it wont matter, this is just out of respect for all involved. But when you get the info. you may all have a good laugh.

    Current Mood: melancholy
    Current Music: Bleed The Dream - A Smile For Judas
    Monday, August 22nd, 2005
    4:24 pm
    Its been a minute....Again......So what else is new
    Hey its me again.....been dealing with a really heavy bout of bronchitis and other unnamed breathing infections and problems. I am losing my voice today, and yet still I have showed up to work every day sicker than all hell.

    We thought that Buddy, the dog, had an ear infection so we took him to the vet today. Turns out I am a good parent to dogs...hooray. My dog is the picture of puppy health.

    I am having a severe uphill battle quiting the "smoking".

    So here is the big news.....my parents were in town and they have met Kathy. It is official...you have no idea how happy i was to see my parents. In fact I think they were finally happy too. My dad squeezed me like he hasnt done since I was a kid. It has been one tough battle to turn myself from my parents worst nightmare (jailbird jones) into a thoughtful, grown up, and more responsible young adult. My parents think Kathy is just wonderful.....and this makes me very happy.....I dont know what I would have done if there was some level of dislike at all. I knew it would be fine..... Kathy is very special and a wonderful woman, and I am very lucky.

    My drums are finally set uop in a small room for me to practice in. I am getting readyy to try out for two bands, but my priority as far as a band goes right now is Juniper Park a new projectwith Rick, my old guitarist from SBB.
    The speed things are going at I feel like I should just start to focus on everything but a band right now because I have talked to rick probably 20 times about Juniper Park but he has made no attempt to really try me out. And as far as the other possible band..... I am not sure yet what they want to play so I am not sure if I would be their best option.

    Good news Chicago, Autumn seems to have begun its final descent in to the chicagoland area. I have already seen some leaves changing and the air temp. and breeze are so wonderful..... upper 60's????
    Monday, July 25th, 2005
    6:39 pm
    Well not much to do here
    Hey I am just sitting in the back at work....still completing the book training. The funny thing is that the next part of the book training requires me to use a part of the program on the computer that no one can access except for Beth....who is not here. So I cannot move forward with my training.

    Well....not a lot is going on....I just downloaded a copy of Batman Begins and a copy of Wedding Crashers. As well as several episodes of thundercats, and two episodes of Gummi Bears. You remember Gummi Bears??

    You know I have noticed over the last few months that all the good jobs that are worth having start out really annoying, lame, and slow. As long as you stick with it you reap the benefits at some point in the future. Like the job I am at now for Hilton. This training sucks booty, but once its done I will get certified on the OnQ program for computer reservations, and insurance and a fairly simple job.

    What else is there to talk about??

    I dont know what else to say at this point. Cant wait to get home...chill out...and just watch a movie and eat some grub.

    Current Mood: tired
    Sunday, July 24th, 2005
    6:35 pm
    Another Update Session
    Hey everyone.... I am writing from work so this won't be too in depth. Let's see well Kathy and I are doing well and we have been having a heck of a time trying to plan this wedding. Planning must be the craziest and most stressful part of this whole thing.

    I was so shocked to find that many people I have fallen out of touch with are starting to try and get back in touch. Wow...I guess I do know a few people worth knowing.

    Last night I had a no limits party at North Beach in Downers Grove....my oh my did we drink. Kathy's cousins Alex and Monika came out to join in the fun along with Andres, Gustavo, Marybeth, and a whole slough of other fun peeps. I had a bunch to drink then went home and we watched MAY. What a friggin wierd movie.

    Kathy and I made our first big purchase together....we bought this really great cookware set and cutlery set....just got it delivered to our house a few days ago...cooking has never been so exciting.

    Buddy, the bestest dog ever, is well. He is learning new things about the world around him everyday. He amazes me constantly, his faithfulness, his gentle demeanor and patience around the crazy children of Highland Crossings.

    We are starting to look into the housing market. We are probably going to be buying a moderately sized ranch style with a large basement.

    Friday was great I went out without Kathy, to Ricks house who I haven't actually seen in 4 months or so. He was havin an all Boones Farm night. Oh my freakin god that party was amazing. Drinking, smoking, talking, the people. It was a beautiful experience for those who were lucky enough to attend. I even saw my old roommate Ken...who seemed to just forget the difficulties of that house years ago, and just wanted to know how I was. What a joy it was to hang out with people who were actually trying to remember the good in me. Great Party!!! GREAT!!!!

    I got a new job...I now work for the Hilton Hotels Company.....but sadly I do not work for Paris Hilton.....he he he. It is a good job...I get to wear a tie, and use communication skills. It actually is helping me communicate with others in a more appropriate manner in and out of work.

    Well, I have to go now.... so I will wish everyone a very happy day.

    P.S. For those of my friends in the city....Friday July 29, 9pm free bar party at Tequila Roadhouse.....Wickerpark area. Just say my name at the door. For those of you who dont know it's Curran McHenry.

    Much love to everyone out there.

    Current Mood: happy
    Current Music: I wish I could play music at work
    Tuesday, June 28th, 2005
    11:33 am
    What's New
    Well, it's been a few days....

    On saturday we went to Brookfield Zoo, it was entertaining, but I remember them having more animals when I was younger.
    We took a flask of Southern Comfort with us and enjoyed some liquor in the heat of course this made us even more tired.
    Saturday night was a blast drank with the neighbor guy, Jeanette, and Aga and her sister and sister's husband. Sunday was
    a bridal show at the Schaumburg Marriott...it was eye opening. I guess it was helpful, but we haven't even had a chance
    to go over the massive ammounts of handouts we got. Yesterday was just a quiet monday I suppose. I quit my job on Thursday,
    and will probably get hired tonight..... I am also planning on looking into real estate....like becoming an agent. We will
    see what happens.

    -C

    Current Mood: lazy
    Current Music: Stay Forever - Ween
    Thursday, June 16th, 2005
    10:26 am
    Another Day ..... I Need A Dollar
    Hey alright....so last night we wnt to the good old Heartland Cafe for the poetry show. It was good to see all the older
    peeps last night. We also got to hang out with my good friend Pinky....we just chilled and watched some spongebob for a
    laugh. Got good and drunk at the Heartland ofcourse....you know how it is. Unbelievably almost everyone was out last night.
    Chris Jordan, Jordan, Kris Panik, Joyce, everyone. Even ran into Perry (Sean) and Laura.....haven't seen them in a while.
    Got drunk, Got sick, Got home...... got in the bathroom just in time to lose my lunch.

    I think later tonight I am going to get a new bed.....we had an air mattress, but the f'n dog popped it with his claws
    of doom (if you're a bed) and we have been sleeping on a futon. Time to buy that damn memory foam bed.....Oh sweet comfort
    where have you been.

    The only really shitty thing that is going on is the whole money thing. It seems like we get money....we spend money.
    This breaks, that needs to be fixed always something wrong. The dog needs to go to the vet, we need a new bed, car payment
    coming up, saving for a house, phone bills, other bills, aarrrggghhhh!!!!! Everything should be free....yeah that's it.

    Me and Pinky are going to be starting up a new musical project so I am calling out for everything but a drummer or
    electronic programmer/vocals.......anything else....contact us.

    Time is really flying.....I have already been engaged for a month and a week.....we are planning to get married in like 14 months.
    It is moving so damn fast.....I find myself in a lot of conversations about voltron, he-man, and thundercats these days. I will
    be sitting around with some guys who are my age and we all get into this I miss my childhood phase....ahhh aging sux!!!

    Current Mood: bouncy
    Current Music: Sounds Of Spank Radio
    Friday, June 10th, 2005
    7:40 am
    Chandlers.....not just your assignment notebook
    So yesterday we wnt to look at this country club near our condo....to che4cck it out for reception site....I thought it was cool and they include everything in the packages. However....as with many relationships (guys you know what I mean) Kathy thought it was unattractive and well.....she is very anti this particular site. We are still trying to figure out where to honeymoon.....and i need a best man, but my first few choices are not able to do the job....I am at a list of 2 or 3 options still.

    Now to those people out there who I haven't talked to in a while.....if you are still out there let me know cuz I am trying to locate everyone for pre-wedding parties and the wedding itself...... just send a comment to me via this journal. Thanks.

    I think it's July 15, I am going back to St. Louis for a visit and to go to my first wedding. Kathy's friend is getting married and I am so excited to seee how this whole process works. Plus I am excited to drink a lot. HE HE HE

    God it has been forever and a lifetime since I was on here.......like I said if anyone is still out there message me..... I believe in second chances.....do you?


    Later, Curran and Kathy

    Current Mood: awake
    Current Music: The Roots Of Acid Jazz - Ramsey Lewis Trio
    Monday, June 6th, 2005
    3:15 am
    THIS JOURNAL IS BEING TAKEN OVER,,,,,,,
    THIS JOURNAL IS BEING TAKEN OVER...... IT IS NOW A LOG OF THE DAYS LEADING UP TO THE WEDDING


    *****FLASH 5/11/05 CURRAN MCHENRY AND KATHY KRZYWONOS ARE ENGAGED*******

    It happened at the Homewood Suites downtown at 44 E Grand Ave. ...... with reservations made only days in advance and booked with the managers approval for the romantic package..... Curran surprised Kathy with champagne, strawberries, flowers, and of course the ring.


    ---------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------


    The date is set tentatively for October 21, 2006
    The location will be in the Chicagoland area.
    ....it's late....i'm tired......more to come
    Tuesday, April 27th, 2004
    10:46 am
    I am sooo tired
    Hey I guess I don't have much to say today. I am so fuckin' tired. I stayed at my pseudo-sister's house last night. We were supposed to hang out, but she went out with her friend and didn't come back. i don't even know if she's home yet, but I am gonna head back over there in a minute. I am seeing Kate tonight.....cannot wait. I love spending time with her. We are actually going to VANS WARPED this July. I totally cannot freakin' wait. So ...... I dont know what else to say. I have been discovering unknown bands or bands that used to be unknown to me. One band that I founf that blows me away is Coheed and Cambria......just found out about them a few days ago......and I just love their music. Well it's a short entry today....see ya!!

    Current Mood: tired
    Current Music: Coheed and Cambria - The Crowing
    Friday, April 23rd, 2004
    4:34 pm
    Just a funny thing to add
    Rick and I are in a band called Spell Bob Backwards as you all know....so I was shatting with some random person online and I thought it would be funny to send that person a "pic of my band" which is actually a terribly funny image i found online. So without further ado....

    THE FAKE SPELL BOB BACKWARDS PHOTO

    fake sbb

    HA HA HA Hope you guys enjoyed that one

    Peace Y'all
    Thursday, April 22nd, 2004
    5:13 pm
    Hey Get Picture Happy
    I am gonna post some pics of peoples I know now so lets start with SPELL BOB BACKWARDS....my band

    SBB MoFro

    Now how about a pic of the boys of Neptunecrush.....my boys out of St. Louis..... http://www.neptunecrush.com

    NC Guys

    I'll have more soon.... I just think if you are gonna have a journal...you should put pictures of people you are close to in it. It's like your chance to creat an online scrapbook of your life. I am sure most people on LJ have already started using images, but I haven't, until now, known how.....so I am now going to abuse the hell out of it. Oh yes. PEACE!!!
    Sunday, April 18th, 2004
    2:23 pm
    PICS.....I hope



    Here should be the pictures that I was referring to in the last entry....if not then that sux.
    2:01 pm
    Catching Up With My Life
    Yo....so I have a lot to catch everyone up on. I will start with some silliness. I joined that website hot or not and I am currently rated at a 7.3. That is such a mind fuck. I would never have guessed I would get such a good rating. Furthermore, I was checking out the meet me section and I got 4 girl who wanted to meet me, and I gotta say they are pretty cute. Take a look for yourself.


    The problem with this is that on Hot or Not you can't contact the people for free....and i don't have a credit card to pay the 6 bucks a month. So I have no way to contact anyone if I wanted to. Then again they might just see this entry and send me a message. Well moving right along.

    The party that we had for Rick's birthday was good, but it got bad for me. I got super drunk....like I have never seen myself like that before (I say seen cuz there is a video). Then my pseudo-sister shaved my head maliciously. It was really a not good experience.

    For the past week Rick and I have been in and out of bars; Monday we went to Gingers where I got hit on by three girls....including a 34 year old teacher. He he....don't understand that. But it was fun. Wednesday was Nevins, Tommy Zender and Ryan Auffenberg were great....as usual. Had a few drinks and that was about it. Friday night Rick and I got real drunk and he fell of the couch and hurt his knee on the floor.....it was entertaining. My friend Jolan joined us and we got hammered...then went to Gingers for a red-headed slut shot right as last call was being announced. After that we were gonna head to MY BAR, but it was last call there too, so we started to head up to Southport to go to Toons. On our way we ran in to a few drunk people who said that Toons was closed but we should follow them to Thai's til 4. So we went there....had a beer and danced a bit, hit on a girl or two....I mean the group collectively. I didn't really go after anyone. Last night went to this guy Ducky's party. There were some amazing people there....really intelligent death metal people. Poets, hippies, punkers, everything......almost all musicians though. They had a keg of goose island...so I was drunk. It was fuckin' rad.


    So that brings me to the serious half of the week. I put in my application for financial aid so that I can go back to school. I am applying to several schools in the chicago area, and I applied to Montana State-Billings (where I started this whole college thing), and I applied to NSU (Northeastern State University in Tahlequah, OK.) ......hmmmmm haven't I been there before???


    I also started writing a movie script called....LIFE WAS SOME DREAM, it is loosely based on my lie since 1998. It is supposed to tell the story of how I came into college clean and ended up messing my self up pretty badly, but now I am making a heck of a come back.

    Finally, this morning I woke up with a slight hangover from last night and cleaned up the apartment. I cleaned the toilet, and the kitchen, and took all the trash out. It's just useful work that leaves less for anyone else to do. So I suppose I will leave it at that, and I hope to continue this very interesting experience that has become my life. PEACE.

    Current Mood: lazy
    Current Music: The Adored - All That I Wanted
    Saturday, April 10th, 2004
    3:56 pm
    Its Fuckin' Party Time
    Yeah...it's saturday!!! Tonight is Rick's B-Day party. We got so much liquor and we are just gonna get stupid.....as a matter of fact i think that in a few minutes we might get an early start. Hell's yeah. I got 2 jobs now.....Assisstant manager at quiznos and the Lincoln Park Zoo. It's cool. It looks like Rachel is gonna come to the party tonight.....uh oh. Whenever I am around Rachel drunk......not good for the emotions of myself. Still trying to cope with just being friends....but getting so close to acceptance. Well...I don't really have anything interesting to say. So.....Peace!!!!

    Current Mood: excited
    Current Music: New Found Glory - My Friends Over You
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